Like the Leaves in Autumn…

  Accept where you've been. Understand where you are. Focus on where you're Going _ Rob Hills Sr.                                    

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Like the Leaves in Autumn i've Changed...

Currently my brain has whirlwinds of those mini tornadoes of leaves that form on a breezy day. The changes in life from family to friends to love to self; whirlwinds of change, letting go of debris for the sake of my soul.

Physically: My hair is much shorter now and much lighter, I had mixed emotions about it and darkened it a bit and miss my big dark natural curls but no regrets just lessons learned. Changes proceeding to emotions; this shoot was touchy. With my Big Dark Curls of Confidence gone, I felt myself uncomfortable in my own skin. Every vision of mine is honestly with My Pajon! But as time passes and ideas continue to pile up, I had to force myself to embrace the look, So I reached for Inspiration and found it in someone us Strong Beautiful Dreamers can all relate to a bit… This is a Close Up of my face that day; Unfortunately it was Absolutely Freezing in Inwood as you can see the pain in my face; but I needed this shoot here, My Home that I've watched change over the years as well. 

Change as scary as it may seem is necessary and ultimately, with care, Great. 

We fear it, but Fear is the worst enemy to a Dreamer. 

Let Fear fall like the leaves in Autumn. Embrace Change and its painful beauty. 

I live to Succeed not to Please You or Anyone Else_ Marilyn Monroe

Grateful Woman

     "The Flower that Blooms in Adversity is the most rare and Beautiful of them all."

This Year Thanksgiving was Special. This year was different. It was a new and refreshing feeling. I didn't do the usual; call or text everyone I know to briefly explain how much I appreciate them; No. I thought about it for weeks; day by day thanking God for his blessings. Thanking God for the Ability to Learn, and the beauty of time and how amazing it is to feel Growth, and to feel deep profound Love; Self Love more than anything emerging outwards into all aspects of my life. And for Serenity, to feel like letting go and forgiving yourself is ok, to be Reborn again and to accept that Everyday is Open to Change. As I celebrated with my loved ones at home I caught myself spaced out zooming into the scenes as the night went on and my heart felt pure, Like That feeling you get when you realize You are now A Young Woman. Everything is different, Better. You're in Control.

This outfit was picked last minute but it shows so much of what I'm feeling at this point in life.  The necklace by Forever21 represents my Bold Heart. The Buttery color of the Sweater by Forever21 represents Renewal and Comfort. The Skirt by Forever21 represents my life; all the bright details show Hope and Faith and Beauty in darkness. Tights by Forever21. Black Suede Booties by H&M.